March 5th

Today has been an interesting today. It started out as a friday. My parents, sister, brother and I went up to the cemetery in Peterborough for the burial of my Grandmother's urn. My mother and uncle cried, my brother cried, and my sister cried. But I didn't. I like to think it's because I'm too young.. When we got back I contemplated taking a nap, but I didn't... Instead I logged on to facebook, hoping she'd be on. And she was. But I was tired off all the shit that'd been happening, for once I'd like to just take control and do something that makes me happy. So I asked her out, except she planned pretty much the whole thing. But that's okay, I can see so many happy memories of us, just waiting to happen. She makes me happy. So tomorrow I'm going to pick her up, which brings me to another point: until I've had my G2 liscence for more than 6 months, I am only legally allowed to drive one person under the age of 19. A rule i've already broken several times. But I don't much care for rules and regulations. Basically, after the day's events unfolded, my parents left for the weekend, my brother, sister, and brother's girlfriend and I (?) went out for dinner at Boston Pizza. We got home, they had some friends over, and we all got drunk and lived happily ever after. I really should stop drinking, at least for a while... I don't want to be a bad influence on anyone, and i mean it's a bad habit to get in to anyways. it's just lately i've become rather dependent on anything that makes me feel unlike myself. Maybe I have self-esteem issues? Naw, I think i'm too egotistical for that. But basically, I'm tired, drunk, and I'm babbling. I really don't know who'll read this... but at this point I don't care. It's just nice to get my feelings out, y'know?

Still unable to write. Insomnia? vanquished.